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I’m Not Making Excuses-I’m Just Explaining!

I’m not making excuses-I’m just explaining!

I’ve been using that statement most of my life and no one’s really listened/understood it’s meaning. I’m offering a current/real life example of why I haven’t finished a project that I received months ago. While yes a part of me just didn’t wanna do it, I knew it would be beneficial and that it needed to be done so I agreed to do it. My business planner/sister asked/told me to do 2 blog posts by the end of the year. I said “Sure, no problem!” This was at the beginning of October. It is now 11:57am on December 31, 2017 and I am writing the 1st of the 2 posts. I’m about to defend/explain myself as to why it’s taken so long to get started- Remember I’m not make excuses I’m explaining why it’s taken so long!

  1. I have a very difficult time getting my thoughts out of my head. I’m an intuitive person. Expressing and explaining myself, even to myself, is very complicated and stressful. I have a very difficult time communicating one on one so the thought of trying to write something in a way that everyone could understand is extremely anxiety provoking!
  2. I’m a Perfectionist. That sentence should explain it all!
  3. I’m very sensitive and I have a fear of failure. What if I write something that someone doesn’t like, or the sentence structure is wrong, or it’s not grammatically correct, or, etc!!! All of these things stress me out, make me freeze, what ever you want to call it that get me to the point that I can’t do it. Not that I won’t do it, but that I can’t do it. There is a difference. I shut down. Dodson coined a term Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria there is a link below to an article in ADDitude magazine that can help explain what it is. Once I learned about it it really helped me understand what I had/have been suffering with as far as my far of failure and my hyper sensitivities.

Trust me it would be easier just to have done it right when she assigned it to me. The intention to do it early was there. My sister had taken so much time and energy to come up with ideas and a great plan to help me relaunch my business at the beginning of 2018. I really appreciate all of her hard work! The nagging and guilt trips during the last few months should have been enough to get me to just do them and get them over with, right? Sound familiar parents? Homework or cleaning room battles make no sense? You nag, fight, take privileges away and nothing seems to work, right?  Well even trained coaches have to work at it!

I’ve gotten a lot better! Some of you might be laughing right now, but it’s true! In the past I would be working on this at 11pm and emailing it to her at 11:59. The 2nd post would be sent some time around 1am and hope that she wouldn’t look at what time it was sent! I’ve also gotten better because while it’s been on my mind that it’s been coming due, I haven’t been stressing/obsessing about it constantly from day one like I used to do. I never did my assignments until the last minute, freaked out about them from the moment they were assigned until the second they were due. Yes, most of the time I was finishing them minutes or seconds before they were due, but always got great grades! There were times when I actually did turn papers in early and didn’t do so well on them! I’m also writing this at my office after seeing a client because there are too many distractions at home.  Another motivation- I see her today at 4pm for our annual New Year’s get together! Yes, fear is a great motivator! I have to have something done so she doesn’t kill me!

I do have to admit that the biggest reason why I’ve waited until now to get this done is because she gave me until today to get it done! If I have until 11:59:59pm on 12/31/18 to finish something that’s when I have to finish something! When you want someone to do something think about timelines. I think I’ll write about that in my next post!

Here are 2 links that might be helpful. The first is about rejection sensitivity and the second is a TED talk about procrastination my sister sent me that is really funny and fits me to a T

-Robin Sonntag